Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do

Hands down I hope I never have to go through a divorce.  I've been through it as a child/adolescent one too many times.  I can't imagine my life without the love of my life in it.  I do see how people get to that point, but I could not do it.  That is something that I've always cherished in my life, the opportunity to get married (and to stay married).  I love Markus and I can't imagine my life being married to any other person but him.  I cannot imagine having to start all over either.  We live in a world today where that is all around and it just saddens me that that is what it's coming too.  It's almost easier to get out of a marriage than it is to get in one.  I've seen so many fail and I just never want to lose the fight to keep my marriage strong and together.  It's hard.  And I fall into blahness but I always seem to pick myself back up (or Markus does) and keep on truckin'.  So here is to my mother who made the comment to my sister when I got married, "I hope she gets a divorce so she can know what it feels like"... I hope I never do!  I cherish what I have way too much to just give it up.  Almost 6 years and going strong, I love you MCW~

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life

Hands down this would be go to Europe.  I've ALWAYS wanted to go to Italy.  Ever since I've met Markus and now a part of the Wilson family I hope to go to Switzerland too and see all about where/how my MIL grew up.  It's always been a dream of mine.  I hope one day to make it a reality.  Though I am scared to go over there though.  Only because I might not want to come back here.  I guess we will see.  Who is to say.  I might hate it... yeah right!  One day.  One day.  I will fulfill this dream.  Hopefully sooner than later.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for

Currently I don't even know where to start for this little truth.  But really a good start would be my mother not showing up for Trevor's blessing.  Did you think I would be ok with you skipping out on my little boy's blessing, and going on a vacation to Las Vegas? Um no!  But really it's not just her.  It's Stephanie and Naomi too.  I'm just going to throw this out there... yall suck!  I was and have been all about your freakin' kids since O like the day they were born!  I love them to death and would adopt them in a heartbeat if anything ever happened to you or your spouses.  But when it comes to you showing support to me... oh no you can't do that.  All of you have only hounded me for what all of my married life to have a freakin' kid and now that I have one I can count the times on one hand in his almost 6 months of life that you have even come around.  Mother, well if it wasn't for us coming to church with you, you would NEVER even see Trevor.  It's just pathetic how my own family who is member's of my church didn't even show up for such an important event in Trevor's life and our family.  However, my inlaws came out with abundance to show their love and support.  Wow!  And to Natalie thank you and Granny for coming to support my little Trevor baby.

So I guess it's time to forgive you, huh?

Day 3: Something You Have to Forgive Yourself For

Hahahaha!  But while we are being truthful, I have to forgive myself for not being perfect.  I know that might sound dumb to some.  If you are any kind of perfectionist as I am, it's a constant battle.  I have to catch myself, take a couple of steps back and say to myself, "it's ok, I'm not perfect".  Of course, it doesn't always work, but forgiveness in any shape or form isn't instantaneously nor overnight by any means.  I think that is why we are here... or should I say still alive,  because we aren't perfect.  We make mistakes.  Everyone does.  It's unavoidable.  If we were perfect we wouldn't be here.  Our mission on this earth would be complete.  And mine is not :)  So I forgive myself for not being perfect... even though I expect it almost every minute of every day.  I know not very rational but hey what can I say?

Day 2: Something You Love About Yourself

I forgot to post about this yesterday.  Oh geez there are so many things!  J/K!  I like my creative abilities.  I enjoy creating.  In so many different things.  Whether it be a meal, a scrapbook, a haircut, a photo, a house project... you name it and I pretty much love to make it.  AND I'm good at it too.  I guess I just excel at those things.  I always have.  You could say it's my area of expertise :)  So I can with confidence say I love my creativity.  THE END!

Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself

Negativity.  I think it's something I combat on a daily basis.  I try, I do try to turn it around to a positive.  It's crazy the way my mind works.  Always thinking the worst of things... at least until something happy happens.  I think it was what I was surrounded by when I grew up.  Not to say it's someone else's fault or whatever.  I own this.  Trust me.  And it's hard.  But it's doable.  If that is even a word.  I tell myself I can do it.  But it will always be a constant fight of mine.  Hard for some to believe, but it's the truth.  And boy does it go from one extreme to another... like hormones or something.  Well whatever.  At least I can say I know it's a problem.  Personally I think it's how I "deal" with things.  Any"thing".  Not that I want to analyze why I'm so freakin' negative.  So there you have it.

30 Days of Truth

30 days of Truths- (From Megan's blog)

I'm totally stealing this. I saw this on a friends blog and she stole it from her friend, who is now my friend so I think its okay. I didn't even read the whole list yet, just a few and thought, what a great idea so here goes...

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself