You Make It Real {Markus}

It's weeks like last week that all I need is you. Nothing else matters but you and me (and Trevor). I am so happy to have you in my life. Seriously so blessed you are mine. I dedicate this song to you my love. Yeah I know it's not Valentine's day yet... and you hate it anyway, but I love you and wanted you to know it's not just on Valentine's when the "Mush" comes out. You make it real to me baby. I love you baby!

Light shed on Christopher

Growing up, I always remember my mom saying I was supposed to be a twin. It never made sense to me and always confused me because I have twin sisters.  Mom would always tell me our names would have been Jennifer & Christopher.  I took it in stride, but never really forgot about "Jennifer & Christopher". 

With the recent sadness of our miscarriage, I felt obligated to tell my mom like I did everyone else, not cause I wanted to...  And she told me that when she was about 5-6 weeks pregnant she started bleeding too.  I looked at her like, huh?  What?  She said basically from what her Dr. said she was pregnant with 2 and when she started bleeding she lost one.  I was the only one born.  I butchered the story but somehow my mom had a miscarriage while still pregnant with me.  I know.  Crazy.  But that story also helped me to see that God has a plan.  And I considered the name Christopher when naming Trevor, but quickly dismissed it because Markus has a cousin named Christopher (Wilson).  Just another interesting piece to the puzzle of life :/

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A Surprised Hurt

Not sure how to feel at this moment...  feeling like it needs to be out so I can move on.  If that makes sense.  Ever get bad news and you wanted to tell someone, but you don't want to?  That is today.  That has been my Sunday night thru my Wednesday afternoon... until now.  The bad news is confirmed.  It hurts.  It sucks.  It WAS so perfect.  Least I thought it was, but not any more.  It's official.  I had a miscarriage.  No surprise Valentine's news, throw away the positive pregnancy tests, the cute shirt I surprised Markus with, the Valentine's cards ordered with "Baby #2" written on them, don't worry about cleaning out the office out to make room... it's gone.

1 Year Check-up

20 lbs/ 28 inches =15%tile

And we love him to pieces!  My how he has grown {so fast}!

He is officially ready for his big boy carseat we bought last week :)

Trevor is 1!

It is with great emotion that I make this post.  No really, just ask Markus.  I balled my eyes out last night.  And didn't really stop 'til I had it all out.  I still can't believe my baby is 1 years old.  I don't know where the time has gone.  It's not just a catch phrase to me.  The time has gone to sleepless nights {at first}, to work for 8 hours a day and 5x week, to church for 3 hours every Sunday, to Saturdays and Sundays spent together just enjoying all day... just the 3 of us, to 1 months, 2 months and so on and so forth to all of the 1st's a year can bring... lifting his head, smiling, sleeping through the night,  rolling over, cooing, sitting up, growing teeth, getting shots, having blow-outs, tasting formula & baby food, crawling, pulling up... I mean seriously if there has ever been an overload in my life it would have been this past year.  It. Was. So. Fast.  And now I am just trying to catch up.  Like picking up the baby book and wondering why the hell I didn't get to fill in the first time he reached for me or waved or clapped.   Probably because I was to busy soaking it all in.  I loved it.  All of it.  The good, the bad, the smelly... you name it!  The more he moved the less I got on this computer to tell the whole world about it.  Wow that was a mouthful.  But it certainly has been the story of my life lately.  Ever wonder if you will miss something if you blink?  Yep that has been me.  And truth be told, I have missed it.  A lot of it.  But I have also gotten to witness with my own 2 eyeballs something so beautiful and sacred to me... something that only God created...life.  Love.  The miracle of the birth of my first born.  And all that comes with it.  I am truly humbled every time I seriously ponder it.  The Heavenly Father knew what he was doing.  Oh let me tell you!

So here are some {ok a LOT} pics of my baby and his party... Most compliments of Sarah Hodges (Nanny) with my lovely new lens.

Eating lunch

Cutesy balloons over his highchair

Bottoms up!

Playing with Bogey

And loving it!

Uncle Eric getting some lovin'!

Smash Cake

Trying real hard to grab the candle

Not sure what to do with this big thing

Finally I had to put his hand toward his mouth so he could taste the goodness

Lovin' on my baby...  I mean toddler

Digging holes in the cake!

Yummmmm!

A Raspberry Cream Cheese King Cake for the adults

I think he likes it!

Arm rest!

Looking at himself in the mirror

Mirror shot!

Not sure who to look at :)

Uncle Eric and Nanny love me!

Eventually we had to turn the cake around...

So he could rest his face and arms on the cake....lol!

Fun cake time!

Sock Monkey Cake Pop Favors
Tags and Party Supplies Design By: Delightful Prints on Etsy

Uncle John wasn't as interested in Trevor's cake fun...

Miss Diane helped clean Trevor up (along with the 4+ others too!)

All cleaned up and ready for present time!

Daddy helps open presents

Nanny gave him a frame that said "I Love My Aunt"

Then Mommy takes over to help

Ready, set, go!

A Goodnight Tigers!  Just like goodnight moon!

Mimi's gift

Drew watching Trevor open gifts

Birthday Banner stretched across our whole living room wall.  Design by: Delightful Prints on Etsy

Lea-Lea got Trevor a ride one Fire Truck

Trevor was all about the balloon on one of his presents...

Balloon= New Toy

Drew riding Trevor's (Markus') Rocking Horse

The Mantle embellished with Trevor!

Playing with Uncle "E"

the #1 Mommy made and Trevor's sock monkeys

the leftover cake

Then out the door for more pictures!

On our way to the front yard

For the photo shoot!

Such a big boy!

Smiling away!

Clap Clap Clap

Trying to climb out the wagon

Looking at Nanny making some noise :)

Yeah my computer crapped out and didn't make this look so great :(

Happy family

Best shot we could get

Uncle Eric, Nanny & Trevor

Playin' with Uncle E

Yay!

Trevor loves Uncle E.. can you tell?

Having a ball!

Favorite Uncle & Auntie

Love this one of the 3 of them

Kudos to you if you made it this far.  It was a great day.  We really enjoyed ourselves and all who came to support our little man.  A BIG Thanks to Eric and Sarah for coming to help Friday and Saturday.  You were a lifesaver.  And to Esther for helping me on Saturday before the party, I can always count on you.  Love yall!